Voiceless Month

I have always believed that the starting of something signifies the upcoming days. But the starting of 2019, has been quite unlucky to me. The world was eagerly waiting to welcome the new calendar. Like others, I was also anxious to welcome the new English calendar with new hopes. Unfortunately, the body mechanism was also waiting to welcome the new mechanism in the body. The same day I welcomed the lonely silence in my body and I lost my old friend voice.

            When we are healthy both emotionally and physically we take everything as granted. We never realize the importance of everything whatever we have. But after losing it we realize the importance. It happened to me too. I always take my voice as granted. I never think can I manage to live without it? However, the new year has given me a new bizarre surprise, the same day when I was waiting to welcome the new caleundar. First two days, I was quite confusing. I thought that it is happening because of the chilling climate of Kathmandu. Soon, I will get my voice back. After the third day, I started becoming more anxious and restless. After visiting a doctor I was hopeful and I thought that I will be fine after a week like how we will be fine after a week-long fever. But every disease is different and we need to cope with them differently. Laryngitis is a nightmare. When you welcomed it ’s very tough to say goodbye. I am saying it with experience. The doctor said to me its laryngitis, you need to take complete voice rest. Voice rest, as a teacher it was again more challenging to me. How can I teach them without using my voice the same thought came to me when I heard the word voice rest. Although I was hopeful of being fit and fine after a week-long voice rest.  A week, somehow I managed because after that we had ten days winter vacation. Again I was hopeful of being healthy in that ten days vacation. In the vacation, I went to my hometown, the voice was also quite recovered than starting. But the process of recovery was quite slow. When I came back Kathmandu, emotionally I became more week than physically. It’s because the recovery was very slow and I thought that maybe I never get my voice back. Even I thought about quitting my job.  Now, I am quite better still hard to feel completely healthy.

            Everything has its own pros and cons. I already said laryngitis is a nightmare. But still, I find the interesting sides of it. When we have our so-called voice, mostly we miss use it. Especially when we need to use it for our bread and butter. I did the same. Now I realize as a teacher many times we misuse it. We listen less we talk more. And when we talk more students also start ignoring our voice, because we repeat the same thing time and again and we do not listen to them. The thing which is boring, no one wants to listen. Mostly, it happens in the classroom even though we hardly realize it. After laryngitis, I value silence more. In other words, I value voice more. Moreover, voice and silence are the two sides of one coin. If we use them beautifully we can’t be boring and uninteresting.