Mero Sansar- Nirjala Adhikari

तिम्रोलागी मैले केहि शब्दहरु रचेँ र आफैंले मेटिदिएं कोर्नु र मेट्नुको पिडा आमालाई सोध! आज सम्बन्धको धरातल फेरिएको छ चाहेरै पनि म ति शब्दहरु कोर्न सक्दिन् र रङ्गाउँन सक्दिन् हृदयको सानो क्यानभाषमा..... निशब्दता........  मौनता अथवा....... शून्यता वा अरु केहि यस्तै.... यस्तैको कोलाजमा कही कतै तिमी भेटिन्छौ लाग्छ तिम्रो र मेरो सम्बन्ध यही हो । 

              Is it punishment is better or love for a child? This question haunts me terribly these days. In these three months, I have many lows and highs. Sometimes I feel as if I am in the heaven because I am with children. Sometimes I feel as if I am in the hell because they are very restless.  As a teacher, I have to teach them anyway because this is my duty. I cannot say because this child is very naughty so I am unable to make him/ her understand. I cannot say this child is slow learner so he/she cannot learn. These are my challenge, not students'. But sometimes it's hard to manage the class. Because children can be cruel. However, we teachers cannot be cruel only because they are cruel.              I always have some kind of respect to them as my students. I believe, they do have some kind dignity as a student like me as a teacher. And they deserve love and respect. But in a class, we found the different category of students as a human being. Some are very extrove

            When I encounter with my relatives most of the time they give me suggestion to apply fairness cream on my skin. My small school kids many times ask me, “Maam are u from Africa? Why you are so black?.” As if being a black is a crime. Some smart one already gave me a suggestion to use fairness cream and some beauty tips to become fairer. I don’t know why Nepali are so obsessed with fairness although all most half of the country is brown. We can say we all Nepalese are brown in comparison with white Europeans and American world.          However, I find Nepalese society so racist. We never think seriously why only fair is lovely, not black? Why is an advertisement of fairness cream increasing day by day? Why those advertisements always link fairness and beauty? Beauty is so subjective thing. I cannot say only white Angelina Joly is beautiful. For me, Lupita Neong'o is as beautiful as Angelina. Beauty is a subjective thing I already said. But in this brown country, we