People hardly know me as a rebel. For them, I am the same girl who sits in the corner without spelling a single word. When you are too tiny among so many people they hardly realize your presence. They can take you like a tiny object which has nothing to do with the world around them. I am one of them. Smallest in the group from school to university. They identify me as a brown tiny girl in their group. When you always feel like an outsider it makes you a different person. I am one of those. Who hardly have a feeling of being an insider. And always considered myself idiosyncratic and weird. When I go back to my formative years I remember being an odd among my own extended family. I was not pretty and fair like my siblings. It is not easy to grow up as a darker girl in a traditional Nepali society. It is harder when you enter your teenage. That is the time when everyone feels a lack of belonging. When you are continuously judged by your skin color and body typ
तर उनीहरुलाई थाहा हुनेछैन, म फर्कनकै लागि गएकी हुँ । उनीहरुका लागि जसलाई मैले पछाडि छोडेँ ।