Unimagined Journey

When I think about a teacher I always remember this quotation, “ When a teacher is in the lowest point he\she becomes a tutor and if  the teacher is in the highest point he\she becomes a mentor.” And this is the first thing which comes to my mind when I think about the teacher. I don’t know what makes a teacher good what not. But teaching profession has never been so different to me as a daughter of two teachers. However, I never think of being a teacher even in my most bizarre fantasy. I think this is all about those people who don’t want to be like their parents. I am one of them.

Recently I have started the teaching career. I think it is all about default. Or I don’t know it is all about destiny or something else. Now I am a teacher. Teacher of children to whom study is not something interesting like movie, song or any interesting game. They are cheerful at the same time very restless. The first week when I started teaching I used to feel as if I lost my own self. As a creative being, I want some time with myself and I always wanted to have my workplace very silent and cozy. But in school, I had to cope with the very noisy environment. And that was the thing which was making me very uncomfortable. At the same time, I was in a dilemma whether my choice of being a teacher is good or not. Because it is not that thing which I like to do.

I always have love hate relationship with the teaching profession. Because teaching is something which made me like this. Which shaped me. It is something which fulfilled my necessities in each step of my life. And I always feel now what I am is all because of my teachers. In a way, they shaped me as a person. But at the same time, it's  so difficult to work in that environment which is so uncomfortable.  Similarly, it’s very hard to do that thing which you don’t like to do.

Each person has their own personality.  I think my personality doesn't suit teaching. Similarly, I don’t want to be a typical teacher which demands some kind arrogance and rigidity. But it’s hard to be different in each profession.These days when I think about the life I consider it only a journey. Nothing more nothing less.